Procrastination or Peace

(Written 1/24/2019)

Procrastination will be the death of my success! I have been great at it for years and I have managed to stay above water in all things, but this year of the Lord 2019 is proving to be a challenge for my gift of procrastination (not so much). So, towards the end of last year I asked the universe for specific things (I might share later), but one of those was advancement in my career in Academia. So low and behold the universe heard my request and granted me the opportunity to re-write an established course at the university I am currently employed. Excited was an understatement and then all things that destroy dreams hit! First, I was doubtful, then overwhelmed, then anxious and finally afraid I would fail. These feelings held me hostage to the point that I did not do anything, and my deadline popped up like those hey bighead text you never want. I realized this was what procrastination really was. Procrastination has been a peace thief. I have been wearing it like a badge of honor because in the clutch I have been able to complete task, but I realized that was causing unnecessary stress. I realized with this incident that I was never properly managing my time or mental health. Have any of you come to this realization?